the careful dance of not plunging back in

today, I am taking the careful dance not to let myself get back into the dance of sin like I did last night. A mighty adventure to please the senses, to dull them and yet ultimately to somehow to kill the spirit of joy. Now, I am extremely careful not to look or fawn on sex. Being deliberate not to go there. How hard it is to just to sit and avoid the lure of it. But I don;t want to be bitten tonight or I could go very very far astray.